Self Care: Sleep, aromatherapy, herbs & Ice Packs

I slept most of the weekend trying to cope with feeling sick and achy. No I don’t have the coronavirus. Maybe it’s allergies.

But most often, this time of year, it’s a special brand of cold and sinus-like symptoms that make me feel like I have a swollen face, stuffy/drippy nose, sore throat, and clogged ears.

Not exactly a lot of fun.

On Saturday, my counselor taught me a new tapping routine for my face that seems to help too.

So what did I do all weekend?

Sleep more than 20 hours this weekend. I woke up long enough to meet with my counselor on Saturday and didn’t wake up until almost 2pm on Sunday.

Drink sanity chai and moistening cold tea because the sanity chai is warming and drying while the cold tea helps add moisture back to my dry self and cools me down from the inside out. Yes I need both because the moisture to make all that drippy stuff had to come from somewhere inside me right?

So what does each do? And why?

Well, the sanity chai helps in a lot of ways, but for the purposes of this post:

  1. Warms me up from the inside out when I feel too cold inside and too hot on my skin
  2. Has astringent herbs to help dry out the places with too much moisture and reduce swelling (inside nose and cheeks)
    1. But the drying part works everywhere in my body, not just the areas that need it
  3. Helps me move stuff inside my body, improve digestion, and circulate blood – more sneezing, etc., but at least it’s coming out instead of staying in

And the marshmallow root/fennel seed cold (more like room temperature) tea does this:

  1. Balances the heat from the chai so that I don’t start sweating or get a rash from too much heat coming out at once
  2. Moistens the cells, tissues, organs, etc. from the inside out so that the sore throat and feelings of dehydration/dry skin, etc. go away
  3. Helps with digestion and elimination so that all the stuff being moved around goes where it’s supposed to go – i.e. nutrients to the cells, blood to nourish the body, and waste to the elimination organ systems.

As for the ice packs, well I resisted them for a long time. For some reason that I can’t remember, using ice packs triggers anxiety. Lots of anxiety. But Sunday night I used an ice pack to reduce the swelling around my nose, cheeks jaws,, and eye sockets. Yes, I am being very specific because there are many places on the face that can get swollen. But these places always get swollen, puffy, and angry on my face this time of year.

No idea why. I can’t remember. Wish I could because that would help me figure out more effective coping strategies. But life is what it is.

So if I”m a little late in posting the next few weeks, it’s because I have a cold that’s not a cold and am figuring out how to stay healthy.

Thanks for reading.

Quotes & Affirmations: from Tara Brach

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Like most of the images here, I got this via Google search engine and am grateful for the many people who upload and share such information for free.  THANK YOU!!!

So why this quote?

Well, to be honest, my parts and I feel a little broken.   Or maybe a lot broken.  And none of us want to go outside and enjoy the beautiful day.  It’s 95 degrees and sunny.  Absolutely beautiful.

But it’s my time of the month (a little late, but not missed), and I’ve been feeling triggered.  The flashbacks are not sequential or even really related to each other as far as I can tell.  And almost all of them relate to my body feeling uncomfortable.  As if my body is signalling to the brain that all of us should feel anxious and beware of scary, potentially humiliating experiences to come.

So when I woke up this morning and realized I wouldn’t be sleeping anymore, I decided to indulge in some food treats.  Non-dairy ice cream with plain water and frozen blueberries as ice cubes for breakfast.  That helped cool me down and hydrate.  Plus can’t ever go wrong with chocolate.

Next, taking back a bit of summer fun…

I love corn on the cobb.  Yet sometimes the memories of corn on the cobb bring on flashbacks.  Today, I faced my fear and cooked the corn in my pressure cooker.  Delicious!

But still not helping with the broken feeling.  Or the bits and pieces of memory stitching themselves together as I type this.

What else?

A shower.  Turning on the fan.  Some cleaning.  Changing into “real” clothes.

Re-reading a mystery novel.

Most important emotionally:

Allow myself to feel broken.  Remember and understand what my alters are telling me.  Let my body hurt.  Relax and remind myself that staying inside is okay.

Most important physically:

That sweating in heat is normal.  That I can find ways to cool down.  That taking multple cooling showers is okay too.  No one has to avoid the shower.

Most important spiritually:

It’s okay to be broken.  And it’s okay to let the broken parts mend.

Thanks for reading

Back to Basics: Self Care week

It’s March again.

The depression and feelings of shame/badness/evil are back.  I had a panic attack between yesterday and today.  It felt different, but I still had to take  the day off to sleep.

The body memory pain lessens with each acupuncture treatment – cupping and body work are helping too.  But the other pain – pain that comes from the toxins clogging my face and abdomen – increases.

While I am grateful for the pain (it means the toxins are moving out of my body) the headaches and sinus aches are triggering and distracting.  The back pain and abdominal pain feel scary until I burp or fart.  Then it feels slightly embarrassing.  Also feels triggering.

All I have to do is focus on self care until my next appointment with the counselor.  That’s what we agreed on in today’s session.  Me take care of myself in the best way possible.  Sleep.  Cook.  Be active, but not too active.  Conserve energy.  Prioritize goals.  Work.

And maybe this time the feelings of being evil, incompetent, stupid, etc. will not win.

Thanks for reading.