In terms of life, this week sucked. Flashbacks, panic attacks, nightmares, more spider bites, and unexpected costs of flight/hotel to go visit family just made me miserable. On top of that, I’m still mostly unpacked, feeling low energy, and having noise/heat issues again. Still, these heat and noise issues are nowhere near as bad as as the last place.
Did I mention the smoker who breaks the rules and smokes pot in the building? No? All I can say is that I can’t wait to start blending and diffusing essential oils in my place again.
But all the small stuff adds up, accumulates until my mind is overwhelmed and unable to cope with normal stuff.
So, back to basics. Stay home. Sleep as much as possible. Set small goals. Ask for help. Act on the help. Use every known coping strategy or technique available. Then use them again. Set a goal. Conserve energy. Accomplish the goal.
This week’s goal: set up my new bed frame and sleep on it.
With Ikea bed frames, it helps to also be creative, resilient, and resourceful – all characteristics trauma survivors learn in order to cope with the craziness. Here’s an example of my resourcefulness:
Now, it’s Sunday night in the US, possibly edging into Monday morning depending on your time zone. And in spite of some misgivings and one wobbly bit, I now have a bed frame put together. Yay! A real bed to sleep on. With my new peanuts blanket and favorites sheets. Fresh pillow cases to lie on too.
And here is the finished bed:
Hope the spiders don’t follow me in there.
And for anyone else struggling for whatever reasons, please remember that you got through it once before. It was hard then; it’s hard now. But you’ll get through this time too.
Thanks for reading!