I am over the worst of the cold that turned into the flu and back to a cold.
While I was sick, the intrusive and negative voices lurking in my mind staged a takeover attempt. They got really loud and started whispering about all kind of bad things that would happen next. My body temperature dropped, and I couldn’t eat, so the voices talked about the ills of starvation and anorexia and how all of us deserved the relapse. And then all of the angry thoughts about personal situations (past & present) became topics of negativity too.
This brought out all of our fears about being sick & vulnerable; made thinking hard; caused so much noise; and made confronting a bully escalate instead of de-escalate. More on that in another post.
How did I cope?
First and foremost, I practiced as muc self care as possible – eat when I could; sleep or est as much as possible; ignore the noise from the bully as much as possible; stay as warm as I could; stay clean
Second, acknowledge the negative thoughts; let them be heard; let them go;
Third, use affirmations and mantras; remind myself I am safe, my body is safe; my mind is safe; my spirit is safe; all parts of me are safe
Not sure if this works for people without alters, but you are welcome to try it: share the burden of fear/shame/triggers with eachh other; let all thoughts, impressions, images, feelings pass through for everyone to work on together and then let them go
Finally (and I couldn’t use this one until Sunday after my Chinese medicine treatment) LAUGHTER really is the best medicine for nefsrivity, evil, bullying or anything like it. Remember times that make you laugh and laugh out loud. Watch or listen to something funny and laugh. Visualize yourself someplace so happy you burst into laughter and laugh.
Laughing releases endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Just be careful not to laugh too much or too hard if you’re coughing. I dis fhat by accident and put myself through a few coughing/dry heaves fits. But the laughter was so worth it.
I hope you are all healty and staying that way. Will tey to get back to a regular posting schedule, but not sure of anything until the cold goes away.
thanks for reading