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So why this quote?
Well, to be honest, my parts and I feel a little broken. Or maybe a lot broken. And none of us want to go outside and enjoy the beautiful day. It’s 95 degrees and sunny. Absolutely beautiful.
But it’s my time of the month (a little late, but not missed), and I’ve been feeling triggered. The flashbacks are not sequential or even really related to each other as far as I can tell. And almost all of them relate to my body feeling uncomfortable. As if my body is signalling to the brain that all of us should feel anxious and beware of scary, potentially humiliating experiences to come.
So when I woke up this morning and realized I wouldn’t be sleeping anymore, I decided to indulge in some food treats. Non-dairy ice cream with plain water and frozen blueberries as ice cubes for breakfast. That helped cool me down and hydrate. Plus can’t ever go wrong with chocolate.
Next, taking back a bit of summer fun…
I love corn on the cobb. Yet sometimes the memories of corn on the cobb bring on flashbacks. Today, I faced my fear and cooked the corn in my pressure cooker. Delicious!
But still not helping with the broken feeling. Or the bits and pieces of memory stitching themselves together as I type this.
A shower. Turning on the fan. Some cleaning. Changing into “real” clothes.
Re-reading a mystery novel.
Most important emotionally:
Allow myself to feel broken. Remember and understand what my alters are telling me. Let my body hurt. Relax and remind myself that staying inside is okay.
Most important physically:
That sweating in heat is normal. That I can find ways to cool down. That taking multple cooling showers is okay too. No one has to avoid the shower.
Most important spiritually:
It’s okay to be broken. And it’s okay to let the broken parts mend.
Thanks for reading