Sometimes life throws a curve ball. Plans change. Priorities change.
I thought my Chinese medicine treatments were over for the semester (winter break) and didn’t plan on one over the weekend. Instead, the goal was knitting on Saturday and sewing on Sunday with some cooking and relaxing thrown in. My friend’s scarf has been delayed long enough. And I need to show some progress for the lessons I paid for.
But I had a treatment on Saturday. I use treatment because each one is more than acupuncture; the needling is only one aspect of practicing Traditional Chinese Medicine. Along with the acupuncture, my practitioner used cupping and massage to help with the memories and muscle tension along my spine. She warned me that the intensity of this treatment (our goals were less anxiety and helping with cold symptoms) might cause some discomfort for a day or two as my body continued to heal.
This has happened before, so I wasn’t worried. What I forgot to take into account was the over time and lack of sleep from the week before along with lots of memories. So instead of sewing and cleaning house, I slept most of the day. Was awake for maybe 8 hours total throughout the day.
And so, here I am writing my post a day late and feeling like a bad person for not meeting my self-imposed deadline. And while I know I’m not a bad person, I still feel bad about not posting a late message. On the other hand, I recognize that I am not perfect. I do make mistakes. And sometimes life gets in the way and there’s nothing to be done about that.
I needed to sleep. My alters needed to regroup. Our body needed to rest and feel safe. Yesterday was a lesson. Self-compassion. Self-care. Listen to those inner voices. Some do care.
Because the weekend got me thinking about anxiety, here’s a quote from the Dalai Lama. I hope it helps you as much as it helps me.
Thanks for reading xo