I love music. My alters love music. But for the longest time none of us could listen to music without getting triggered. Most of my CDs and music choices were taken away from me, made fun of, used or broken by people in my life who didn’t want me to enjoy music or got tired of me listening to the same songs all the time (college dorms and visiting family members). At home, nothing belonged to me so my parents “borrowed” my music whenever they wanted and kept what they liked for themselves. And my brother loved music too so he didn’t want me to be interested in music at all. Because anything I was interested in became evil, boring, etc.
But music is everywhere. And it’s hard to stop songs from being heard when people like listening to the radio in the car, at the stores, and so on.
The life changing moment
Back in high school, a lot of traumatic events took place. Some I’ve written about here. Others are waiting to be told. But I felt trapped and hopeless until I heard a song called “To the Moon and Back” by a semi-popular pop band called Savage Garden. The lyrics resonated so well with my life at the time, I thought the artists had been flies on the walls of my life. Hearing this song was y first real experience with empathy and not feeling alone – like I was the only person in the universe experiencing these problems and feelings.
Here is the YouTube link if you are interested in checking out the song. Maybe it will inspire you to keep going; maybe not.
Either way, happy Friday and wishes for a relaxing weekend.